Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Isabella is 1 Month Old

This month just flew by. Isabella is doing wonderfully -- she is such a precious addition to our family. We are so fortunate to have her!
She is sleeping well (although still no more than a 3 hour stretch at a time), nursing often, and getting CHUBBY. At her 1 month appointment, she weighed 8 lbs. 10 oz. and was measured at 20 1/4". She is in the 35th percentile for weight (she was born weighing at the 10th %tile) and 25th for height.
Isabella is spending quite a bit more time awake and alert every day. She has been tracking really well, and loves to look around at her surroundings. I am trying to spend more time holding her and letting her have tummy time, so she can be stimulated when she's awake (initially, Isabella slept so much that she rarely ever left her moses basket). When Isabella is on her tummy, she likes to pull her knees up under her, sometimes flipping herself over or even scooting foward a little. She still has very light brown hair and her baby blues are only getting brighter.
Isabella's lab results from the hospital came back positive for heterozygous Factor V Leiden and seem to indicate an Antithrombin III deficiency (although this test will be repeated).

Although Isabella does have her periods of crying (usually to eat, because she is quite the piggy and would be happy to nurse every hour), I have to say that, overall, she seems to be a pretty calm and content baby. She's made this first month so enjoyable and breezy for me. I love this baby!

Monday, October 27, 2008

Pumpkin Patch

This past Saturday, we went to the pumpkin patch at Mother Nature's Farm with our friends, Chrissy, Mike, & Lana. Everyone had so much fun looking at the animals, picking out and decorating pumpkins, and going on a hayride (sans the hay). The kids got to wear their Halloween outfits, and Chrissy even made Ari an adorable Halloween hairbow to match. Gabe was on cloud 9 -- throwing pumpkins, running free and playing with handfuls of dirt (quite the novelty for him!), and pushing his stroller all over creation. None of my kids got fussy the whole time we were there, which made it that much better for me! After the patch, the Edwards fam joined us for some pizza and a marshmallow roast at our house. It was such a good time that I was tempted to call them the next day to do the whole thing all over again.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

A Poem for Ariana

"When I was young, I'd often say,
I'd like to be a mom someday
While playing with my baby doll,
I thought that job's not hard at all

I'd have a baby, maybe two,
a girl in pink...a boy in blue
Well I grew up and sure enough,
I'm now a mom and gosh it's tough

The baby that was sent to me,
was born with disabilities
At first I'm frightened through and through,
there's much to learn to care for you

This wasn't in my plans at all,
when I was young and played with dolls
Your mind and body were so weak,
you might not ever walk or speak

So much special care required,
I'm often scared and often tired
As months and years go slowly by,
I smile a lot but sometimes cry

To watch you grow and not complain,
though you endure your share of pain
Oh, how I'd hold you and I'd pray,
that you'd be healed and whole someday

But I knew that was not to be,
not physically or mentally
And so I taught you best I could,
your progress wasn't always good

But then one day I realized,
as I gazed into your loving eyes
That I had learned so much from you,
determination...courage too

A love so unconditional,
it floods my soul and always will
I'm proud to say I gave you birth,
for you're an angel here on earth."

-author unknown

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

The Mastitis

I'm sitting here wondering what it is about me that makes me so prone to ailments... in this case, it happens to be The Mastitis. I call it that because it reminds me of "The Plague" -- it just needs an article before its name to emphasize how dreadful it really is. For those who don't know, Mastitis is a breast infection that sometimes occurs in breastfeeding moms. I realize that there are many people that check our blog and don't want to hear all about breast infections. Those individuals should stop reading now, because I need to document this. It has definitely earned its spot on the blog. Furthermore, I am so supersticious that I believe that as soon as I put this in writing, The Mastitis will miraculously vanish, making a liar out of me (that's what I'm hoping for!).

The Friday before Twyla left (nearly three weeks ago), I came down with Mastitis. I immediately went to our favorite urgent care, recognizing the all too familiar ache (I had Mastitis twice with the twins) and the throbbing pain in my head. Urgent care gave me an antibiotic (Cephalexin) and sent me on my not-so-merry way. I spent the next three days in agony with fever, chills, and migraines (spinal headache). I had to take Ibuprofin around the clock, even though it's kind of contraindicated to be taken with my blood thinner Cumadin. I begged my nursing student sister, Marci, to get me a Vicadin (I didn't care how she came by it), but she firmly refused.

Well, the migraine went away along with the accompanying flu-like symptoms of Mastitis. I smugly believed I was on the road to recovery, silently congratulating myself for catching it in time. But of all things, my breast never improved! I did the warm compresses, I took my medicine religiously, I nursed the baby -- nothing worked for almost two weeks. The PA at my OB's office started talking about me having a consult with a surgeon. One morning, I woke up and the Mastitis seemed to have resolved itself -- yea, victory! The very next morning, it was back with a vengance in a new spot. I decided on Monday that I had no choice but to go to the doctor and get a new prescription for another round of antibiotics (Dicloxacillin). At my appointment, my OB proceeds to tell me that my boobs "look really big" and tells me, prior to noticing the mastitis, that this might be my problem. Hmmm.

Last night, I had shooting pain in the boob, non-stop for hours (I'm talking scream out loud and hold an ice pack to my boob in front of visitors pain). I start sweating at the thought of nursing Isabella on that side and rationalize to myself why I can just skip that side and go to the other. I contemplated going to the ER just to get a narcotic, but I just hated the thought of bringing Isabella into that environment and exposing her to all those sick people (since I'm nursing her, I can't just leave her at home with Jake for hours). Anyway, yeah, this has been a big deal. I can't ignore it in real life, so it goes on the blog. Every night at bedtime prayer, we pray for it to go away. So now you know.

Monday, October 20, 2008

My Baby is Growing Up

I just thought I'd say a little about how it is having Isabella at home with us. Every day, I get a little more comfortable in my new position as a mommy of three babies. While our schedule is hectic at times, it is nothing short of fulfilling all the time. My darling new baby has been such a little dream so far. She sleeps a lot during the day and tends not to be much of a cryer compared with other people's little ones (or so they say). Of course, my other two did not cry much in the first month or so -- it took them a little while to get started. This week, Isabella has spent more time awake and showing off her pretty blue eyes. Aside from that, not much has changed in her behavior as of yet.
Isabella does LOVE to eat. She cluster feeds all day and most of the night until around midnight. She likes to eat every 2 hours or so, and sometimes even as much as every 30 minutes. At night, she wakes up every 3 hours to eat like clockwork. She doesn't take a pacifier (to my dismay), and she hasn't had a bottle since her first or second day at home. Even though it is sometimes demanding to feed her as often as I do, it can be nice because it's an excuse to take a time-out from the other demands of the day. All the eating is definitely paying off. At her 2 week appointment, she weighed 7 lbs. 4 oz., and today she weighed just shy of 8 lbs., warranting Daddy's loving petname "chubby nubby" :). I can't believe how fast she's growing.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

What's New at 19 Months Old

While there is SO much new in the world of Gabriel and Ariana, I have to keep myself on a short leash and not get too carried away writing it all, because there just isn't time. This month has been one of exceptional growth, not only because of what they've accomplished on their own, but also because of how they have had to adjust to their new roles as big brother and big sister. Ariana is making amazing progress. We grow more proud of her each and every day. For one thing, my little Ari has mastered the art of finger feeding with her left hand. While she had previously been able to feed herself some things (usually taking bites of a big piece of food), she now uses her pincer grasp (thumb & forefinger) to pick up small foods like cheerios and raisins and even little crumbs and put them in her mouth. She can clear her tray in no time at all... that is, when she wants to. Accompanying her newfound feeding independence, Ariana has also decided that she wants to chose what to eat and not just how to eat it. Naturally, this rebellion has led to an all out refusal of most of the foods that she used to love. To be clear, this is completely behavioral, and not a result of her limited abilities. When Ari doesn't want to eat a food, she'll either hit the spoon, throw the food off her tray, or scream. In the rare event that I manage to sneak it into her mouth without her interception, she will shove her fist in her mouth to retrieve the offending food item. Mealtime, especially dinnertime, has been... hellish. The foods that Ari consistently likes right now are cereal, yogurt, cheese, crackers, raisins, fruit, toast, and other sweets. With that said, she has gotten a little better this week only (but I'm holding my breath). Ariana, although not yet drinking out of a sippy cup, has been attempting to hold her bottle with her left hand. There are no handles on her bottle, so this is a pretty major thing. Once she has a hold of it, she'll bring it right up and put it in her mouth. Sometimes, she'll push the bottle aside if I'm holding it, only to replace it herself. 19 months going on 19 years old.

In terms of mobility, Ariana has learned how to roll for transportation! She now rolls side to side in both directions consecutively across the room. She is so proud of herself, and we are so proud of her too! I love that she can get to where she wants to go. She is so determined, and this is only the beginning for her. First major gross motor milestone in a long time -- hooray! Ariana has been sitting up for several minutes at a time unassisted. While I can't say that she'll do it "indefinitely" without assistance, I can pretty much rely on her to sit there while I step away from her. If she knows someone is sitting behind her, she'll rely on their support. If, however, she sees them move away, she knows that she's on her own and she'll meet the challenge and support herself. So, in reference to the goal I set for her that she would be sitting independently by the time Isabella was born, in my book, she has accomplished it. Ariana loves her baby sister Isabella!

Ariana is learning body parts. She can point to her hair, ear, nose, and mouth. She likes to brush her own teeth and hair (of course I still do it for her too). She also knows how to sign "eat" to show that she's hungry and "please" to ask for something. She says "mama" all the time.

Ariana also has developed a very big attitude. While she's still as sweet as ever, she's equally sassy now (and very sensitive too). Ariana demands attention anytime she is awake; if someone steps out of her sight, she'll let out a siren wail to let them know that their behavior is unacceptable. Other times she lets out her siren wail include when Gabe shrieks (even if it's playful and not loud), when she hears any loud noise, when she has to get her bib put on, when she has to eat something she doesn't like, sometimes at bedtime, when she doesn't want to sit in her chair, when she wants to sit up, and various other times of the day. Whining is also a common occurrence. Ariana is my best friend and smiliest baby, but right now, she is definitely my most demanding child.

Gabriel is full of surprises each and every day. He has been talking non-stop, and I just am constantly amazed by his ever increasing vocabulary. I have stopped writing Gabe's words down, because I just can't keep up, but I would estimate his vocabulary to be roughly 100 words. While Gabe's pronunciation of the words is not quite as advanced, he makes himself clear because he will whine and shake his head until I can prove that I have understood him.

Gabe has currently mastered most of his colors. The exceptions are orange and brown. He consistently calls brown "black" and orange "gee" though, which shows me that he gets the concept. Gabe is also learning his shapes. So far, he has learned circle "kirkle", oval "ovo", moon "moo", heart "hut", star "sta", square "ware", and triange "tagle".

Gabe lets us know when he's about to go potty by announcing "poo poo" and signing it at the same time. And no, I'm not ready to start potty training even if he is.

In this past month, Gabe has figured out how to walk up and down the stairs while holding on the the railing. He has been trying to walk up the stairs without the railing, but I don't let him. Gabe loves to climb up slides and slide back down them. While he really enjoys the park, his favorite place is the play area at the malls. He has no fear at all, and plays right up there with the big kids every opportunity he gets. Other favorites this month include apples, cars, airplanes, balls, walking on river rocks, the pet store (dogs), rough-and-tumble play, puzzles, and his "Brainy Baby" DVD. He loves to wave bye to people in the window as they drive away in their cars, to point to the moon every night, playing with older kids, and reading books. He hates getting his diaper changed, when people leave suddenly, and sitting in the stroller.
Gabe got to hang out with his cousin Vance.

Gabe's behavior has changed pretty dramatically ever since he realized that he is capable of communication and rapid mobility. He seemed to get his strong willed intensity from his mom and his mischeviousness and sense of reckless rebellion from his dad. It's a dangerous combination for a toddler. Gabe is going through a hitting and throwing stage right now. He frequently puts himself in time out (without being asked) when he does something he knows is wrong, which funny and a little scary at the same time. On the brighter side, however, Gabe is also learning how to play independently. He traipses in and out of rooms, up and down the stairs, and doesn't need to have constant companionship to have a good time (or wreck the house). This is quite a relief, as you can imagine, because I have two that are in constant need of my "undivided attention" at all times, and it's hard to stand up, let alone get anything done in the day.

Fun month! I love watching them grow :)

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Our 1st Week With Isabella

After a week's hiatus from the blogging world, I'm back. I am happy to annouce that, so far, being a mom of three little ones is not nearly as daunting a task as I anticipated that it would be. Of course, I should have prefaced that by mentioning that my saint of a mother-in-law, Twyla, has been here since Isabella was born, and it is only our first week, afterall. Nevertheless, I am pretty relieved that the positive emotions have been far outweighing the stresses.

On Saturday, September 27, 2008, I arrived at the hospital at 7:30 AM. I had already been having labor contractions (spaced 5 min. apart) for over an hour at that point, so I was more than ready to get started. By the time they were able to get me into a room and start me on the Pitocin, it was 11:30 AM. Both Jake and my sister, Marci, were in the room with me and entertained me and snuck me food (gelato) throughout the process. Initially, I cringed at the idea of having Marci in the room (because I don't like an audience), but she was really supportive and helped pass the time with her conversation and encouragement. Everything seemed to go by pretty fast. I was given my epidural at 2:30 PM (just as things were starting to get a little hairy), and at 6:03 PM, Isabella came into the world with only a push and a half. Towards the end of my labor, the epidural was starting to wear off, so I got to have a taste of what transition might feel like without all the medication. I have to say that my labor was seamless and, really, a great experience. When Isabella was born, she was immediately placed in my arms. I was overjoyed that they did this. When my twins were born, they were so medically fragile that I hardly got a glimpse of them before they were whisked away for hours. Instantly, upon cradling Isabella, I felt a surge of pure love for her. I saw her little arm and thought that it was the most beautiful little arm that I could ever even imagine. I remember saying that I think it was more beautiful and adorable than if it had been whole. As Jake mentioned in his post, Isabella weighed 6 lbs. 2 oz. and measured 20 in. (which turns out to have been a generous measurement). She is very fair; with a peachy complexion, light brown hair (blonder in front and darker in back), and dark blue eyes. On Monday, Isabella and I were discharged from the hospital, healthy and happy. I was so excited to see Gabe & Ari -- I had really been missing them a lot. When Gabe and Ari saw us, however, their reactions were both pretty surprising. Ariana was elated to meet Isabella. I have never, in my life, seen Ariana so happy for so long as she was right then. She was babbling and squealing and waving the entire time -- never once losing that priceless grin on her face. It was as if Ariana was had long anticipated Isabella's arrival -- as though they were long lost friends reunited. Gabe's reaction was somewhat different. For the first minute or two, Gabriel was very curious about the "baby". After a few moments passed, he had a change of heart. He suddenly burst into an all-out tantrum and decided that he couldn't stand the sight of me or the baby. It just broke my heart. I feared all throughout my pregnancy that he would have difficulty adjusting to a new family member, but I had no idea that it would be this soon. For the next two days, Gabriel had difficulty with eating and going to bed. He was especially clingy with Jake and very distant with me. He made several thwarted attempts at clobbering the baby (or stepping on her while she was getting a diaper change), and he could often be found crying on the floor in a room by himself -- I was tortured. But by today, Gabriel is back to his happy self. He no longer seems to feel as threatened by Isabella's presence and is much more tolerant of her and of me. He only occasionally tries to scare her by screaming (this is how he bullies Ariana, who is afraid of his shrieks), which is a vast improvement from how he was behaving just a few days ago. It certainly doesn't hurt that Grammy (Twyla), Marci, and I have basically doubled his toy arsenal over the last week.

Isabella has made this transitional process as smooth as it can be. She is such a delightful baby (if you know me, you'll know how anxious I am to be typing this because I am supersticious that my luck with turn). Isabella only cries when she is hungry, and it is a rare occurrence even then. She eats and sleeps wonderfully and has been waking every 3 1/2 to 4 hours to eat during the night (about every 3 during the day). It has been so much easier to have this healthy, nursing singleton compared to my previous experience with medically fragile, preemie twins -- seriously, a difference of night and day!

Isabella makes Ari and Gabe look like grown people in comparison to her. Suddenly, my twins have gone from being babies one day to these mature, communicating beings. It makes me realize how quickly time flies and how these precious moments with Isabella will also be so fleeting.

At Isabella's one week appointment last Friday, she weighed 6 lbs. 1 oz. (already just 1 oz. shy of returning to her birthweight). Since then, I have weighed her, and her most recent weight on our home baby scale is 6 lbs. 7 oz. I honestly don't know how I would have ever gotten through this week without the amazing help of my mother-in-law, Twyla. Just like when my twins were born, she has just filled a huge need in our family during these adjustment periods. She does what I call "see a need, fill a need" -- always looking to help with feeding, dressing, and playing with the kids. She is constantly keeping everyone's spirits up with her little songs, her inspirational stories, and her encouraging words. She has a way of bringing uniting the whole family while still validating and supporting each of us as individuals. Jake and I are so grateful to have her in our lives.

Jacob has also been a wonderful help to me. Although some days it comes more easily than others, he picks up all of my slack and helps me without a word of complaint. I was so worried that adding a third baby to our mix would stress him out completely, as he has so much on his plate already, but he has stayed as calm and collected as ever. Jacob has been feeding the kids breakfast and helping with dinners, cleaning up our messes as we make them, and doing baths and bedtime, often singlehandedly. My kids are so lucky to have him for their dad, and I am even luckier to have him for my husband.

Our new nanny, Brooke, has also been a supergirl in our house. Her sweet personality and always eager-to-help attitude have been such a relief for us. She really gives new meaning to the word "respite". My kids love her, and I love how she is so in-touch with their needs. She is always looking for new ways to entertain, educate, and enrich their afternoons.

Honestly, there are not too too many times in my life where I can say that I feel completely at ease. This is why I'm even more pleased to say that now is one of those magical times. I have fallen in love with my baby Isabella, and all is well. Like so many mothers, I am so pleasantly surprised by how much love and room in my heart I have for her, despite the fact that she has to share my love with her two siblings. I am looking foward to the wonderful times there are to come. She is our little Sweetaleet.